When the life ends

I have been traveling for a long time

I see no God in my ways

There is nothing to make me happy

And everyone says "Be happy don't be sad"

How should I? 

I'm so tired being adjusted to all

I see only obstacles in my life

There is no way to move on

I'm so sad, so tired, so broken

I searched for a light of hope

But I hear only lamenting bells in the dark

Why is it so long?

Put an end to it.

So I can be free

Free like a crow

I ask you not for a colorful life

But a life with one colour

I don't know, when it will get

Though I hear a symphony from long distance

Far far away from my life ends.....